“I came to my first realization that human flesh and blood could fall madly in love with Jesus.”
I read this statement above, by Beth Moore when describing her recent “huge” transition in life. Her family is leaving the church they have been apart of for 30 years. She was describing what the church had meant and still means to her and her family. This church was where she saw her children walk the aisle to accept Christ, where she led Sunday School, where her daughters got married… and so on. It is a part of her.
Now, as I read this letter, I was deeply moved, as I have recently just been through a “huge” transition myself. Bart and I may not have been a part of the same church for over 30 years, but I was apart of a family, a city, and a community for over 30 years – my whole life. It was all I had known. It is a part of me. A part of what makes me, well me.
It’s a scary thing – CHANGE! But if we just stood still and never moved, what a boring life we would lead. If we just stood still and never moved, than whose lives would we touch? What difference would we make? Don’t we all want to make a difference?
Here’s what I think…
I have fallen in love too! I remember down to where I was and what time of day and what color the ink in my pen was when I read a scripture about Abraham. I cried, not with sadness, as I prayed and told God that I wanted to fall in love with him! (Surprising or not, I am not talking about the day I walked down the aisle and “asked Christ into my heart.” This moment came well after that, and not too long ago.)
This might sound just like the kinda crazy you don’t need in your life. But let me tell you, I remember asking God to let me fall in love with someone once. This was a man, that I wasn’t supposed to be in love with. But I was scared, scared of being along, scared of the unknown, scared of myself. I finally broke free from that relationship and my own fear.
Then something stirred in my heart and I was literally moved to ask God to let me fall in love again. Only this time it was with his son, Jesus. To have my heart and my life be consumed by him. I wanted to know what other’s meant when they talked about ”their personal relationship with Jesus.” I wanted a personal relationship with Jesus! I wanted my life to be changed – FOR REAL.
Let me tell ya, he didn’t hesitate!
Just as with any relationship, it’s not all roses all the time. It’s hard. I’m not perfect! I am the last person to claim to be a “perfect christian” of which there is no such thing. But I know with 100% certainty, that I am totally and completely in love with Jesus. And when this happens, he begins to reveal things to you.
The path you are about to take becomes a little more clearer. The trust you have becomes deeper. The risk level becomes higher. Life becomes richer!
So as I have already embarked on this transition, and am living a life full of change, I realize even more that human flesh and blood can fall madly in love with Jesus. And what a blessing that is!